I am sitting quietly this morning, writing, reading and preparing to take our son back to college today. I am a little melancholy about that. There is guilt. I don't think I spent enough time with him this summer. I spent the last few days making his favourites, as if that will make up for anything. It just makes both of us feel better, I guess. Yes we soothe with food in our family.
I have taken on too much this summer and who suffered? My family. The ones we hold dearest to our heart are the ones who suffer our wrath and who stand with us through the consequences of our choices. Big surprise that now I am going over all of this as one of us leaves for a while. A little late perhaps???
I am taking a course with The Figley Institute www.figleyinstitute.com so I can obtain more detailed information about compassion fatigue and vicarious trauma. I have to say, I am not doing so well. I love the material and the presentation but I cannot seem to get through the lessons without problems. I know they may not believe it, as they have already fixed the program for me once, but the pages jumped around yesterday when I was working on it and I missed a section which was important for the following quiz. I failed the quiz!! So while being melancholy and reflective about this summer, I am now stressed and frustrated while trying to gather more information so I can help others!! Now I can only laugh.
I am going to spend some time helping my son get ready for school. I can do that...I will avoid the fight about what he needs, how to pack or whatever else...