Sooo...I went to my counselling session (see www.lifeinspired.ca). It was wonderful. I spewed all of what has happened, my frustrations and where I want to go. I don't think I took a breath for the first fifteen minutes!! In two hours, (which was over my allowed time, but I don't think Robin could stop me) I received validation about what I have done and we confirmed my path is what it should be. Robin spoke to the scared, doubting 5 year old inside me and reminded the adult in me, "She is sweet, be nice to her, but she is wrong, she is 5!" That was a powerful message for me.
I will do this again and I highly recommend it to other caregivers and social service providers.
I walked away from the meeting feeling lighter, more confident and convinced investing in myself is really a priority now and best for everyone in my life both personally and professionally.