I have already said, I have been in social services for about 30 years. In all that time I have supported people during difficult times and helped them find the resources to cope during difficult times. I have never had professional counselling, though I have recommended it many, many times. I have seen and heard the positive results from others. As a human service provider it seemed right to refer people, but it never seemed okay for me to do it. I have always been the one to ask about others and help them sort out their needs. My support system has been friends, family, books and Oprah has helped also. I have the most supportive, understanding family and friends, but sometimes it would be nice to be able to talk to someone I do not have a personal relationship with, who will listen to me talk about me.
I have finally decided to walk the walk and will be seeing a counsellor today. I have no idea what we will talk about but it will be up to me. I am stretching myself by doing this but just having this website and a place to share is a stretch for me also, though I know no-one really knows about it yet!!
I am excited to move forward and challenge myself. I have many doubts each day about what I am doing, but my self confidence is is just enough to keep pushing me and I am grateful for that.